Tuesday, June 19, 2012

He Heals Me

"The moment that we met
He made me smile
He has so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea
How long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime
Forever or a year
But for the first time in my life
I'm not worried about the future
Cuz we have such a wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out it's alright
Cuz he's already changed my life..."
-India Arie

As I sit here typing feeling all of what I'm feeling I am almost in a dream state.  As you can probably tell by the song I am in LOVE.  I am currently both in love and in a relationship with the the man of my dreams.  It all seems so unreal to think that just a couple of years ago I was right here typing telling the world via my blog how much I was infatuated by this new friend I met... I knew then that he was someone special, I knew then that he was someone different, but then trials came.  Our friendship yielded joy and pain that I could never have imagined.  Yet with each new victory over the obstacles that got in the way of our bond we grew closer.  More importantly I learned to trust myself.  I learned to always go with my heart and trust the love that was within me.  I think that is the most overwhelming part of this love.  It came as a result of me trusting myself and my feelings and my faith in love.  In the past I have always been the hopeless romantic that just fell... But this time I just knew, to quote one of my favorite movies I knew, "like you know a good melon..."

Needless to say I am elated.  I am in such a great place.  I feel so loved.  I feel like my growth, my journey, my trials, and my epiphanys were all worth it because no matter what happens I finally have gotten to the place where I trust me and I love me enough to do that.  I am in awe of Love right now.  I've said it before, Love is my deity... I trust that God is love and in that I trust that the love inside of me is leading me on the right path, is protecting me, is growing me, is loving me, is teaching me to love, is teaching me to be loved...

I am overwhelmed by love and life and faith right now... Trusting and loving will always yield a better you...
I am really appreciating this part of my journey right now... Healing, growing, loving...

Until the next song plays...
 - Jazz